Oh Boy...seems like it's been another week or more since my last post. Aha..seems like some of u are havin fun trying to find the 7 horses!..ok for those who still cant find the 7th horse..let me give u a hint.."Even if you can't find it, there is proof that it exists"..hehe u can go check out the illusion pic again and try finding the last one.

Back to how things are. It's been jus classes classes and classes. Sounds exhausting..it is a lil but it's all interesting classes. Getting to noe my team mates better, working with the diff ppl with diff characters and attitudes. It's kinda challenging though. I've been really competitive in class. I've always been doing extra work compared to the rest. It's not jus a few extra. It's always at least 5-10 extra things I'll do. I wanna proof to myself that I can handle it and I can do it better than the rest. I don't know for sure if havin this spirit of being so competitive is right or wrong. I kept on telling myself not to go overboard. One thing for sure I know is that I need to be in control of myself. How I feel towards others during this time of competition. Note that though we r in a team, but we r competing with one another as well. Who's ideas work, who is outstanding in strategising, who is the best, who is the one who do all the job, who has the most potential. Every designer has his/her unique way or doing things and ideas.

Sometimes I feel that it's so difficult to share my ideas because I notice I've been doing it aloot and I dun wan to over shadow anyone. At times I'll just keep quiet and listen to the rest..but sometimes to my opinion their ideas and the way they strategies is not so effective. So how do I deal w that?  I cant pull down anyone's ideas rite? I cant just tell everyone that their ideas wont work, use mine. No I cant do that. Everyone has the right to voice out their opinions. That's why they are here at this course. Isit because I've alredy been working for sometime and I know how certain things work compared to d students?

Through this 2 whole weeks. I really learnt to work w diff designers. Ppl who totally have diff ideas and ways of doing things. Design is such a subjective topic. No idea is right or no idea is wrong at all. It all depends if that 1 particular idea works for that 1 particular product. It's either u hit the "BullsEye" or not. Coming together..everyone has ideas. Everyone hopes that their ideas wil be used. How can I evaluate which is gd and which isnt? there isnt a right or wrong idea right? So the only way to know, is to try out the different ideas. In design it's not always about thinking logically. It doesnt always work that way. Sometimes, some ideas might sound so silly but it actually is the remedy! But when there's so many ideas, so many diff ppl to u hope not to offend, and so little time. How to try every diff idea and then only evaluate which works and which dont work at all? I'm definitely still in a confused state in the process of evaluating ideas.

BUT!..I am still learning. I know. I'm still exploring and experimenting. These 8 weeks. It's a time to not be afraid to make mistakes and pick myself up again. I just need to totally release myself and Just Do It! Dont care what happens. Though sometimes it's really unexpectable. The exercises that Janet and Shanaz do with us, it's really not something that anyone of us are able to guess. It's 'Surprise' on every class. Not gonna be afraid of what Shanaz is gonna comment. If he is gonna say the 'F' word to me..(like some have alredy tasted it) So be it la~! There was once I felt so stupid..I cant even answer a question specifically. Cos I didnt know how specific I should get and what is the specific answer. What should I say? If I say this, there's gonna be another question to it. If I say that it's gonna be yet another question. Never ending. Sigh..I guess it's part of learning. Maybe he is doing that to give us a lil preview of what it's like in the real top agencies out there. Prolly the real world out there is worst than what we r facing now.